Still Here

Hey everyone!
Its been forever since either of us has updated this blog. After Part 1 of my story, I lost my motivation to continue. At the time I thought the process of getting all the memories and emotions out would be really therapeutic. I still think that, but after my first post, all the negative emotions started to flood in.

No one in my life knows anything about my life on crew. Later you'll find out how I kept it a secret from Loser and my family. So, naturally, I feel a lot of shame and regret. Lately I've been thinking about how my family could have saved me from crew if they had known what I was going through. That's when I found my motivation to continue my series. If my story can help prevent one person, one family from going through what I have (and the aftermath) then my mission is complete.

I've read many mag crew stories, and mine is by no means the worst. Hopefully it will open people eyes to the truth about how these kids are taken advantage of and some of the emotional scars it can leave.

I'm finishing up Part 2 of Vermont, I promise it won't take 10 months to publish this time ;)